Saturday: Went to the Singapore Tourism Board for a school fieldtrip. *coughs* I think the trip is useless although I got to see the pretty place. Then I went to meet Tom for lunch at breeks, the Mash potatoes is so yummy. We bumped around orchard before meeting two of my classmates at four. Senglee and Kelvin, both his good friends. It’s a little nice gathering although a little bit weird because we were not holding hands and it felt strange. We would fool around a bit when they were not looking though, haha kinda funny. I think if we were acting like a couple, it’ll probably be weird for all of us, so we kept our distance. As the day progress, I don’t think they care actually but it’s kinda fun acting like classmates again.

Then, we met up with two other classmates and they had guyfriends along. There was lotsa eye contacts and all that checking out each other thing going on. At one point, I was talking to one of them and shortly afterwards Tom was suddenly really keen to show that we are a couple. Lol

Sunday: Ate too much again and spent too much time on my ass working on my essay and chatting to a couple of friends. If not for the essay, I would have labelled today a sloth day. I’ve still got lots to do though. I’m just really glad I’ve got no tutorials tomorrow. Yay

Look what Sabine gave me!

This is to commemorate her first year in pixelstars.net. *smacks* It haven’t been a year yet. lol… but that is ultra sweet, Tiffie has one too.
I think the graphic is really lovely. I was showing it off to my boyfriend telling him that girl is supposed to be me. *big grin* Thanks Sabine sweet!

Ok so things settled down. We’ve survived a week without my aunt. Not intending to get a new maid because nobody wants a new one except me. We’ve got a caterer taking care of our dinner. Good and bad. Bad because the food generally sucks, good because I rarely eat at home. haha

My mum is cooking lunch and dinner tomorrow. I wish I could stay home and eat but I’ve got this fieldtrip to Singapore Tourism Board in the morning and I’m meeting my classmates later in the day. I think tomorrow’s going to be fun.

Erm finally, a friday five on a friday.
1. What are your favorite ways to relax and unwind?
Read a book, chilling out with my girlfriends or boyfriend, playing piano.

2. What do you do the moment you get home from work/school/errands?
Wash my feet, then raid the fridge.

3. What are your favorite aromatherapeutic smells?
Huh, I’m not into aromatherapy

4. Do you feel more relaxed with a group of friends or hanging out by yourself?
A group of close friends

5. What is something that you feel is relaxing but most people don’t?
I don’t know… making layouts?

My aunt flown back to the Philippines but I haven’t felt like she’s totally gone. Yesterday, I was wondering why she didn’t call me to ask if I was eating dinner. >:O Can’t taste her food now, her spagetti, chili crabs, curry fish head. *sighs*
Cried a little that day, the only comfort is to know that I’m going to see her again soon because my and my close friends are planning to attend her wedding. If she’s going to hold it right in the middle of my exams or something, I’m going to smack her.
My sister is taking it better than I expected. Food cheers her up, that little squirt. Tsk tsk

I’ve done most of what I ought to hand in and there are no coming tests. All that is left to do is some project preparations and lots of readings. I need to draw up a time-table soon. Hah sticking to it is another problem but I think it’ll help me stay focus, even if a little.

I’ve watched Lilo and Stitch. I think it’s rather disappointing, I was expecting a lot more because my sisters told me it was nicer than Mulan, even Monster Inc. I dunno, perhaps I was too busy smsing that I missed out some important parts but I don’t see how that few sms could make much difference. Of all disney classics, I think I love Beauty and the Beast most. You can watch it a million times without getting tired.

Plug: Lele. Haha *gasps* content!

Had the most fun today in school. My physical geography lab session is so enjoyable. My group members and I were laughing at every little small things and poking fun at each others. I was purposely late for 20 minutes because I went to eat my lunch but everything still went well.. whoa a first this week.
Then, my friend told me one of the essay deadline will be postponed to next week. Yay, saved my life a bit but I need to start doing the one for tomorrow soon.

It’s frightening how things could just turn out exceptionately well one day and then down the drain in another. The ups and downs of life, all in a weeks’ time.

What will happen tomorrow? I’ve got plans but whether everything goes accordingly, it’s another question.

Tomorrow: Wake up early to finish my essay, go to school at 4 for project proposal presentation, rush off to Causway point for project meeting, rush back to celebrate mooncake festival with my auntie, sisters, best friend and her current beau.

Saturday: Karaoke and just hanging out with my girlfriends

Sunday: Send auntie back to the Philippines, cry and try to make my sister happy. Sigh. Oh and start working on my other essay.

Some lecturers doesn’t know the meaning of short. Yea the time limit is short enough but we were required to write so much. Thank god he gave us 10 more minutes. Other than his inability to judge length, he’s quite a good lecturer. The ultimate Mr Nice.
I think I’m getting more private and introvert. With all the stuffs that are constantly buzzing in my head, it’s hard to smile at people genuinely, so better not socialise too much, lest I crank up. But I can’t seem find the bitch in me anymore, which is probably good. hmm… I think I need to find some time to hang out with my galfriends soon, to find a part of me which I somehow left behind, before I totally forgot about it.
Oh sheesh, I sound so morbid. I dunno but things just sucks and all the comfort I have now is in complaining about it, so grit and bear with me.

Insecurities can drive you crazy. While he does sound like a fortune cookie, haha.. Right now, I couldn’t agree more.
This week, school is going to be tough, with deadlines approaching from every corner. Sometimes, I like it this way, to be so ultra busy for this short period of time. And when everything blows over, you’ll feel that you need some serious pampering for being so damn productive. Muahaha…oh weekend! Please be here soon!

School and everything is starting to drag. I used to think I’m one of the happiest person I know, but not anymore. The place where I’m most happy at, my home, is going to change. My auntie is going back to the Philippines soon and it’ll be most unbearable because she’s been with us for 10 years. That’s is freaking long. She practically watch me grows up. And I’m worried about my little sister, they’ve been together since her birth, so it’ll be like taking a second mother away from her.
She denies the fact that my auntie’s going and nobody is allowed to talk about it. I’ll hate whatever that is going to happen that day.

Ok this is getting stupid. We’re back together but somehow it isn’t the same. It felt better then breaking up but there are so much uncertainty. Screw it, I don’t care anymore. I’m going to study now because I’m so behind and there are tons of school stuffs to do.

Thanks for all the well wishers. Seriously, your comments make me sounds like a stupid, whiny girl. But they helped.

This early morning we broke up. I initiated it and we came to mutual agreement later on. Initiating it doesn’t mean comes any less painful for me. In fact, last night was one of the worst ever – Cold, exhausted and heart-brokened.
Reason for breakup isn’t very far from the problem we had. Different scenarios but if you stripped down everything, it’s still the same old problem of she loves me she loves me not.
But it’s ok, he will probably be much happier with someone else.

Am I damn to have short relationships for the rest of my life? I can’t imagine myself having really long one, I dunno…maybe it’s just me. I’m single now and with that comes the privileges of being free. *sighs* But right now, it’s nothing to cheer about.

It’s comforting to know that I haven’t forgot how to laugh. Thanks Lele.

The difference with this layout is that the graphics will be dynamic. I’ll keep changing the graphics without touching the codes until I got the hang of graphics designing. I don’t quite like this one but oh well, it won’t be here for long. I’m not going to save any of the layouts in my gallery because it would be too bothersome. No need for comments, it’s just purely experimental. Haha, this dork is excited!

Some time ago, my friend made me an oddly shaped pencil case and I didn’t use it because it was really oddly shaped. Actually, I made her sew me one as a return for accompanying her to spotlight where she bought the cloth. Anyway, I unpicked the whole thing today (I know I’m evil) and sew myself a pouch for my md player. Ahem..and it’s completed with zip and everything.

Isn’t it kinky? hahaha I’m so in touch with my femininity!