Had a wild night at d blo last night. I went clubbing with my best friend and her bunch of SIA colleagues. I thought stewardess are posers who just poise around in clubs waiting to get picked up. They were all there for the booze. I was sober and fully aware of everything, and that is why I thought that towards the end, things became embarrassingly out of control. Ack.

I was enjoying myself until things became disconcerted and I have to look out for my best friend all the damn time. She was obviously high from the shots she took (she absolutely can’t drink) and two guys were eyeing her, trying to grope her. I had to pull her here and there. Few times I wanted to slap her. I was so pissed. Then when I wasn’t looking, she went to dance with this girl and.. aiya. They made such a scene that I had to pull them apart.

They were a nice, reserved and sensible bunch before they got tipsy. Then hell broke loose and I was groped, hugged and tugged around. I met my nus friend and she was pretty amused. Seriously, last night is not my kind of fun. I really don’t want to wake up the next morning, not knowing what really happened. There are worse happenings but those are none of my concerns so I’m not going to blog about it. If I had to choose a word to discribe last night, it’s not wild, it’s messy. *shakes head* My friends think I can be wild at clubs but compared to them, I’m a mellow little lamb. Meh. It shall stay that way.

I’m going to the Night Safari later tonight. May it be irenic, one night is enough.

Hurhur! Plug!
Don’t expect too much because I haven’t been working on the graphic. Miss Lazyass dug the graphic from her 3d studio rendered and threw in some photoshop effects. Most of the time was spent learning flash, which I STILL suck at. I’m getting the basic hang of it though.

It is special though, because Tom endorsed it. He wanted to know the process of making it and I got quite excited showing him 3d studio, photoshop and flash. I was directing the cursor here and there, not allowing him to touch the mouse when he wanted to try. Well, I don’t think he was really interested, I think he just wanted to learn more about what I’m crazy over. He must have realised how important web-designing is to me when he saw my “I’m in heaven” look the day we went to that pasar malam. I told him he could teach me basketball if he want, but of cuz I’m kidding. hehe *huggles bf*

There’s a new links page too. Linking blogs and sites cliques and everything together. It saved me a lot of hussle and I find it easier to check for dead links too. Hehe I’m at my most organised.

Anyway, I was adding screenshots into my gallery when I saw this. Where the hell did those people come from!? I think someone is direct linking the blog album because that’s the only album getting a lot of traffic. Weird.

Verbiage has a new layout.

I’ve got a new layout too but I think I’m going to modify it a bit before posting. I want to relaunch pixelstars.net.. It’s becoming more “school-oriented” cuz of all the school stuff I have in it…and I absolutely do not like that. Pixelstars and school just doesn’t sound right together. I’m goint to clear everything related to school and start working on the personal domain again. I wonder what to do with the forums though, I have no time to maintain it or get traffic and I can’t close it because since I ask people to come I have the responsibility to keep it running. I might email the arts club people or something. They are in a better position to manage it. Ack! Stupid School Project.

Anyhow…

Sunset – You are the spark of inspiration, the fuel
of the imagination, and the essence of
destruction. You are one of intense emotion
and passion, a creator and a destroyer.

When are you?
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I realised why am I meeting up with a lot of friends whom I haven’t seen for quite sometime. I’m turning 21. It’s the next significant turn of age after a series of “more important” ones.

Such as…age
13 – no more children’s day
16 – legal age of consent for sexual activity. But seriously, it doesn’t really matters to me
18 – Legal age for drinking and driving. Have a little irony, its good for your blood.
20 – No more a teen
21 – The key! ya whatever, I still don’t get it.

Afterwhich most would rather not remember and I would rather not think.

I’m probably meeting up with them to let myself know that all has not gone down memory lane and I could take something tangible with me as I move along. Friendships, among others is one of the most important.

Then there’s the future. The thing I’d always skipped over because I’m convinced it’ll be most dreadful.. getting wrinkled, stuck in working life, no more school, staying at home to clean house and all that. I was MADE to think about all that this week and surprisely it wasn’t as scary. There are a lot of things to look forward to….aiya, who am I kidding? There are none. AHHH! *cries*

Side note: I went to pasar malam today and saw that adobe illustrator 10 and photoshop 7.0 costs 10 dollars each. In case you didn’t know, the real thing costs US$609.00 in the market. When I saw the price tag in Challenger for the first time, I almost fainted. Though I’m not doing any justice to Adobe systems, I’m guiltily thankful for pirated versions and the bengs who are willing to take the risks for fronting people that duplicate softwares.

You Are A Juicy Kisser!
About Your Kissing Style:
Your lips are totally kissable baby, and you know how to use them.
You are the perfect – with the right combo of lips and tongue.
It’s important to flaunt it, so kiss early and often on dates!
What Your Kissing Style Says About You:
You’re 100% hot, and you know it. You’re all about being sexy, all the time.
You have no trouble scoring dates or kisses …
Just trouble getting rid of jealous people trying to show you up!
You attract attention from every hot guy and girl… even before you show off your kissing skills.
Your Personal Kissing Matches and Mismatches:
Go out with another Juicy Kisser and you’ll be the power couple of the party. Sure, you’ll have a ton of
hot kisses, but only after everyone there has checked you guys out. Hook it up with a
Romantic Kisser and you may have found your soulmate.
Romantic Kissers will be attracted to your appeal, and you’ll appreciate their loyalty.
Keep away from Carnal Kissers! They’ll just try to play you for sex, and
ruin your reputation in a heartbeat. And Freaky Kissers are way too wild and
rough for your style. You prefer pleasure to pain, thank you very much.

Comprehending how some people are willing to sacrifice so much for love is beyond me. There’s a scenario. Not necessary for it to be made known, just understand that most normal people, under normal circumstances would think the sacrifices made are ridiculously foolish.

For the benefits of those who lacks imagination, lets say there’s a girl who attempts to commit suicide for some guy. It’s much worse actually.

Anyway, I just don’t understand how someone would do such things, tell me I’m not missing out. But I do wonder what it feels like to have such intense feelings on someone that you are willing to forgo everything I thought important, in this case, her existence. Even if the love’s unrequited, it is baffling how some people has so much love to give to just one person.

I feel I can’t say anything because whatever I say is based on social rules which love overperched (for stony limits cannot hold love out). Do I know anything about love…sorta but certainly not that kind. Personal morals don’t hold too, simply because we are different people.

When love, morals and social standards clashed, it’s usually one of hardest things. But I don’t pity her.

My posts are getting shorter and less personal. Sometimes it feels like posting for the sake of posting. Um..updates.

- She left and has her own domain. :’(

- I’m so glad Jenna won the Survivor Amazon. Her landslide victory over Matthew sends out a message that laziness, whininess, all things that were a sure sign of failure in past seasons, broke the unwritten code of ethics which Survivor has been set by over the past seasons. Many believe that hard work will win out in the end but Amazon took that blind faith and spit it back in their faces. Oh, how I like that.

- Had the most fun last Saturday. Went to Madam Wong 2 and hung out at some quiet spot in a corner to drink and play silly ice breaker games. Laughed my ass off. Then we dance a bit and went to eat teochew porridge at Bukit Gombak. The guys gossiped a lot and me and my best friend just sat there listening and laughing. *shakes head* Guys can be so crude sometimes. The so called mens’ talk. I supposed it would have gotten much worse if both of us were not around.

- Started working at Hewlett Packard on Wednesday. So far so good, just sick of being introduced around as Lewis’s daughter from nus.
Most common reaction: Waa…so big already huh! (um huh?)
I don’t know if it’s appropriate to call them by name..gotta show respects to the folks know… Then again, it could be insulting if I call them uncles and aunties, I’m not exactly a kid anymore…

- Went shopping on Vesak day. One Robinson’s sale and voila! No more SARS scare. Everyone flocked down there and got me so irrirated. One step.. stop.. move.. a few steps.. make way.. shuffle..shift.. takes a breather on the escalator and then more shuffling again. If only I could swipe them all off to one corner and shut them up and have the whole place to myself. muahaha

chimerical: I know…last time you in sex 4 super good
chimerical: oh sorry hahaha sec four

Just telling I hate someone who I think don’t even deserves mentioning. I’m just trying not to say much or whatever comes out would be far worse the entry two posts earlier. Then you all would think I’m mad. But I tell you, I am mad. Super mad. I think nobody deserves to die, some are just justified exceptions.

Awww.. love the new layout at anywool.

Anyway, I’ve got a new idol. He is Aron Ralston! Ahhh hero! Goodbye Clay Aiken.
Michael Owen is a father….yesh you rock!

I’m quite sick of people making snide remarks about my friend. Especially when they DON’T fucking know him.

I’m not even implying that I know him well enough to pass an accurate judgement. The point is, if you don’t know someone, haven’t met the person, haven’t talk to the person. SHUT the fuck UP.

I told my lecturer I screwed up one question and he screwed up his face. Cute. Yea… watever, exams is over! I’ve got one more paper this saturday but it’s 20 percent of the overall grade and there is not much to read for the module, so I’m as good as done. Wheee!

I went to a friend’s birthday party right after the paper. I met this boy with raging hormones and he was hanging around me, poking at my arm. It not funny cuz people I hardly know are looking at us and I don’t know how to deal with kids who are extrovert to that extent. And it got worse.

Enters boy’s mother.
Boy points to me and tells his mother really loudly, “Mummy, wo ai ta” (I love her)

Er..Excuse me!? *faints*

When I’m 40, he’ll be 27. Let’s see if he still loves me then.

And anyway, Happy Birthday to Ling too!!!